At 31, I still have a lot of "figuring out" to do. I'm really no further in life than a couple of years ago and have made no giant strides to change much of anything in my life. Instead, life has changed some things for me and for better or worse, I've tried to adjust. But sometimes, I get tired of always being the one to adjust. Sometimes I want to be the force that moves things (in this case...my life) along and in an entirely different direction. Am I sad for the choices I have made in my life? Sure, in some matters. But I'm also very realistic in knowing that "things" can not and will not be any different. So again, I adjust. I want different things at different times, then often drop the notion and plug along in everyday life. What does all of this mean?
Sadly, I don't know anymore than you do.
Maybe it means I need to have a serious sit-down with myself and figure out what I really want and go get it.
Maybe I need a new hobby, something to spark my creativity.
Maybe I need to freak myself out and shake it up a bit by moving to a new town, house and job
Maybe it simply means I need to go on a vacation.
Whatever "it" is I hope to find it